missing God

usually I can convince myself that I'm still an ok christian... tonight I'm feeling a gaping hole in my heart.

hmmm.....

and that's as honest and vulnerable as you'll probably ever see me get on the topic of my Christian walk.

UPDATE:  It's several hours later, and I've had a good night's sleep.  Enough sleep to recognize last night's ...whatever it was..... as a result of exhaustion coupled with loneliness and stress (there may be some hormonal influence in there, as well).    This morning is *much* better.

Be that as it may, there is a nugget of truth in that late night melancholy. My attitude towards my savior and my salvation is *very* lackadaisical, *very* taken for granted.  There are probably many people who know me, who have no idea that I'm a Christian, and would be surprised if someone told them I was.

I need to work on restoring that relationship.

Comments

[James Albert]

I'm a little puzzled...

On one hand, you express concern about your Christian walk, and on the other hand, you mention you loved the Mummy Case by Elizabeth Peters, which is not only seeded with hostile anti-Christian sentiments, but ends with open heresy.

To refeshen your memory, the Mummy Case leaves off with Amelia Peabody expressing sadness about the loss of the "missing gospel of Thomas" which supposedly shows that Jesus Christ had been married with children!

And just to make sure the reader gets the message, Amelia muses how a believer would be willing to kill in order to suppress the "truth" from getting out.

And not to be outdone, Amelia's beloved Emerson asks if Thomas desribes the "trick the disciples played on the Romans, to make them believe a man had risen from the dead" and ponders whether "Jesus was married and the father of children."

Ok. Though a Christian, I wouldn't expect Elizabeth Peters to have her main characters become Evangelical Bible-believing saints. Afterall, her series is about Egypt and tends to be respectful of the Muslim faith. But...I certainly wouldn't have expeced her to be so openly hostile, insulting, and disrespectful to the Christian faith.

Didn't the anti-Christian rhectoric that's laced throughout the Mummy Case bother YOU?